Desperate

Getting up is never easy, especially if you have fallen a million times. I find myself at this place right now, like I'm beginning to accept it to be part of my life. But I know You didn't call me to a life of compromising, a life of defeat. You have won the victory, why am I not able to hold on to it?

I am not brave enough to go through this alone. I am weak, I know, I acknowledge that. I need you! I always want to go home because I know, I can find strength when I'm home. What should I do? I can't keep running and running... Help me... I'm looking for a miraculous change that I know I shouldn't look for. Help me change my mind set, renew my mind from this corruption. I need You afresh God!