Ping!

Hmm... i cant seem to find a better title and i cant upload the picture i wanted to put for this post... So sad!

Just wanna make a record that I've reached Kuching on the 1 December 2006!!! The long awaited date of my flight to Kuching finally came to be and i reached home on the night of Dec 1 2006! Well, I haven't done much since my holidays except for sleeping, eating and going places (no where new la... just around KL and KUCHING)

Well, flyin back to KL on the 8th Dec, for the Planet Shakers conference! It has got to be a life changing experience! haha... Gotta go bathe... Gonna go out for dinner! woohoo!

Dare to fail!

I suddenly remember this book. Dare to Fail, though I've never read it, I remember the title. Do I dare to fail? Well, this will be my test. I'm sitting for my toughest paper of the semester in less than 2 hours and here I am blogging away, putting out my frustration in here. I have been studying for this paper for the past 2 days, but still, I don't understand! This is the worst of all. I might fail this semester, though I wish that I will not. I really need a miracle to pull me through this. I used to have a target of getting into the dean's list, this semester I dare not put such high hopes of fear that I might be crushed under my own expectation and my family.

Mum, dad, (well, if you find out about this blog that I have and have been reading it, here's something I want to say to you) I'm sorry that I'm not smart enough. This semester is really bad. Sometimes, as I sit on my desk, I feel that I have let you down so much, and I'm sorry. I wish that the situation would be different, but this is not a movie or a game, I can't go back in time.

All I want now is to go home, and leave all this behind. This is my last paper. I want to go home, and get fixed. "God, please fix me, I don't know what's wrong!"

The Story

This is how it goes. This week, I'm having my exams. One thing I don't understand is why I'm not worried at all. This is the first time I feel nothing during my exam week, so much so that I am not studying enough! This feels so weird. I don't know what has gotten into me. I guess it's too much of carefree living - Hakuna Matata (The Lion King)

I even managed to start a new series Heroes last week during my study week. If you guys can get your hands on that series, get it! It's really nice. I'm hoping that they will come up with the full series on DVD soon..

Ny way, hope that someone out there is praying for me. I'm lost. Both in my exams and also my life. I really hope that this holidays will be time for me to straighten things out.


My Prayer: God, be with me. Carry me through this time to suffering and teach me to be teachable. I submit to You oh God. I recognize that You are the author of my life, You have placed a great calling over my life, You have called me to greatness in You, and God, I surrender my life to You. For without You, I am nothing. I have no strength, I have no form, I make no impact.

Missed it again!!

The end of the semester is coming so near, and i'm missing classes!! Nooooo.... the last few lectures are usually the most important right?? I feel like i'm so lagging at times.

The last few days, have been working into the wee hours of the morning, preparing our projects and making sure that we are able to hand it in in time. Felix n I toiled tru the night with other group members and we didn't sleep much. After the 3 nights not sleeping, I felt scared of it dee... Staying up sooo late... SO kids, if you're reading this, go to sleep when your mummy tells you to sleep, because she knows that when you grow up, you'll get to sleep less, so enjoy the times when you can sleep early! Sleeping late is not cool, it sucks! Seriously..

Ny way, not all the projects are done, handed in two of them, presented one of it today, and then still have to work on it because the lecturer is expecting us to get it fixed. Got one more to hand in this thursday, and we have to do a project presentation asap before the raya break!

Well, God said that I should have faith of a mustard seed, not a small faith, but faith that even though it looks like nothing, it has power inside! I gotta ask God how to do that.. hehe.. cause i want that kind of faith, faith that can move mountains! faith that can take out "Goliaths" in my life!

How did i come here?

O Lord, how did i run so far?
When did i start to lose sight of you?
Was it when I first laid my sights
On the girl next door?

O Lord, how do I know?
What is right or wrong?
Whether it is your will,
How do I discern?

O Lord, where did I go wrong?
What have I done?
Or have not done,
As You have commanded?

O Lord, why have i no passion?
Why do I not thirst for your words?
Like I once had,
Lord I pray you put that back in me!

O Lord, is it too late?
Was I too slow to realise?
That I have all this while,
Been drowning in my own doings?

O Lord, will you not speak to me?
This I will do, continue to pray to You;
And Praise Your name,
No matter how distant I feel
For I know Your hands reach out to save me

Lord, Please take me from this mess!
Lord, PLEASE save me from this constant struggle!
Let me hear Your still small voice guide me once again!
Let me feel the warmth of your embrace!
Set me free from this bondage!
For Impossible is nothing
To my Father in Heaven, who art great!

Great week!

I must write this by today! else I won't have anytime left... Like I have said, last week, i went to Langkawi for COP Church camp. I thought that this camp, i can go and just have fun.. haha didn't want to do anything, but then, the schedule of the cam was so so so packed and I got involved in the post moterm meetings and i was a group leader! whoo! that was really great. Camp was fun and I did so many things that i have never done at camps before, have lots and lots of fun and at the same time we experienced God in such powerful ways.

Aiyaks... want to upload photos but the connection is so slow... seems to be ages dee waiting for it to load... crappy connection!

Hmmm... I think i'll write without the photos first la.. some other time then only i'll upload the photos...

Well, camp was in Langkasuka Beach resort in Langkawi. We had the place for a very very very good deal! The food was good, the place was great, we had the beach all to ourselves! haha... I guess the biggest highlight of the camp for me was seeing my friends touched by God, and I believe that someday, they will come to know Christ as their personal Lord and savior. My room mate, Jack and our best buddy/ brother Look came to the camp! ahah... Really thank God for bringing them there.

Going to Langkawi in itself was a small adventure. =D the most exciting part for me was taking the ferry from Kuala Perlis. Woo! that was fun.. haha... even had the chance to go to the top deck n get wind blowing in my hair...

In the camp, we plaed station games, and we had to eat such disgusting food and i mean disgusting. The worse is the mix of blended raw vegetables (brinjal, long beans + duno what else). It smelled like grass and tasted aweful *yuck!* ><
During the station games, I want to comment my group members for doing such a great job, Douglas and Thana who ate and drank most of the disgusting food, Erica for putting down her umbrella and really helped throw the baloons in one of the stations, and the whole team for working together! Although our group scored the lowest in the overall scores, but we did very well for the station games! hahaha... we set record time for some of the eating or drinking of the food... lolz...




After the camp finished....

I went to KL and stayed in my sisters home! Hehe... had a really good time to unwind there. Btw, i carried a bottle of vodka in my backpack from Langkawi to KL! haha... Enjoy it che! haha... That night when i arrived, my sis ha gotten me a really nice cheese cake for my bday and danny bought me a bday present!! haha.. the shirt is still at my sis home cause i didn't want to spoil the shirt in the laundry here... All i did at her house for the next 3 days was sleep, sleep, play PS2, go online, then more PS, eat good food, sleep, and eat more good food and also finish up one assignment paper! I actually wanted to make a trip to the city to shop around, but my butt was too lazy to go around, so the only time i went out was with my sister la... hahaha...

Then on saturday morning, Qi arrived with her dad, so i followed her to go to KLCC for the MPO that night... I enjoyed the performance a lot, but sadly missed the second part. Too bad la.. but next time can go watch another performance again so it's okay.. I think i'll be addicted to this kind of thigs, watching orchestra performances. It's so enjoyable. If next time i work and have the time and money to spend, I would love to go to these performances like maybe once a month! haha.. .wishful thinking la... where got such time oo!..

Well, I guess I'll stop here for now la... Have a busy week ahead.. I want to sleep early tonight, so that i can get up early and be fresh for lectures tomorrow...

I'm Going To Langkawi

Woohoo!! Tomorrow, I'll be sitting for my last test before the mid semester holidays start... I still havent finish revising but no worries, i'll have time in the morning! hehe...

I'm going to Langkawi for my church camp this Saturday!! Woohoo!!! And the best part is that we're having it in a nice hotel, and all we had to pay is RM260 for 4d 3n camp!! ahah... This is really God's blessing.

After the camp, i'll be off to KL, to visit my sis. =) actually i go there just to get away from the university la... if holiday stay in campus very boring rite? so stay in sis's place for a few days la... then on Saturday, i'll be going to watch a performance at MPO again! =)

Quick note

Just want to post a quick note. It has been a long time since i last posted. Partly due to my busy days and also the lousy internet connection. I'm having tests for the week, 6 to be exact.

Will post more during my holidays which will start this coming weekend! =)

Silent Night

Today is Friday, it's past 12, but still, lets call it Friday night. Today is not a very hectic day for me, so naturally, i got up quite late. Went for prayer meeting at the nearby meeting place, and after that had lunch. After lunch at 2pm, went for my Object Orientated Programming Lab (OOP) from 3 to 5 pm..

Came back from lab, I somewhow felt tired, must be the walk from the lab to my room la... haha.. .So took a little nap, then played computer games with my room mate. AT 9:30, started walking to the co-curricular block for the orchestra practice.. the place seems to be miles away, and tonight, we could not find a car to go with, so we had to walk la.. It sucks, and by the time we reached there, it was 10 something! Tonight, the practice was a little sucky for me.. Wasn't playing all the right notes, and I felt kinda bad.

Just got back like 15 minutes ago and here I am blogging. Haha.. My room mate is not in, the whole house seems to be quiet. Don't know what happened. Guess they must have gone out to mamak... It's so sad, a friday night, with no one to talk to, laugh with, share with. Sometimes, it's lonely to be single, but I believe that God's timing is the best. I'll spend this time with the Lord le instead of wasting it away.. =)

Choosing God's Best

Yay!! I finished the book "Choosing God's Best" yea!!

On the day I began to read this book, God has been leading me and my friend through a lot of things, and I believe that we have both learnt lots of things.

The author, Dr. Don Raunikar presented what is courting vs. dating basically in this book. Through these few months that I have been reading this book, I've learnt many things about God's purpose for a man to be together with another woman. God initiated the plan, so that means we don't have to "help" Him to help us get a mate. I've learnt to trust God in this area of my life, though at many times, I must admit, I still struggle with this issues.

The only way that I can be on the road to find my "other half" is to start building my relationship with Jesus Christ. This is because God will never allow us to put anything before Him and that includes our relationships with other people.

I encourage you guys to pick up this book also! This book is not just for those who are looking for a mate, but also singles and even those already in a dating relationship. Just read this and you'll see God's will for marrige and how perfect it is supposed to be. The process to marrige doesn't have to come with pain, all it takes is obedience to God, and a willing heart to serve one another and honor one another.  

Hot Shot!

Today is a BIG day for my university.. Tun Dr. Mahatir is here! He's giving a speech on "Cabaran- cabaran Mentadbir Sebuah Negara" or "Challenges of Governing a Country". The speech starts at 10:00 am, and ends around 12 i guess, so all our lectures from 10:00 am to 12:00 pm is cancelled!!

So basically, that means that I'm free today la... hehe... Was so busy over the weekend, attending practices, going to church to prepare for Sugar High on friday night, but what I really liked about the past week is that I had time to go swimming with a few of my friends.. ahah.. Today, God gave me time to do my group assignment! All classes cancelled (for me cause I don;t have class after 1pm today... hehehe...) ahah.. This semester, sometimes, looks very gloomy, but everything is brighter when you look at them from God's perspective, when you have God in the picture, you'll believe that everything will work out. And it does!

One of the things I've been learning for the past weeks has been that God wants us to trust Him. God is like a father who is in the raging seas, asking us to jump into the sea before the ship sinks and assuring that He will carry us, but we just look at the water and we fear and forget that He is there to carry us through. When we choose not to trust Him, I think He'll be hurt. Just like you and me, when our friends or loved ones don't trust us, we'll feel hurt.

On the 20th August, I'll be down in KL together with my university's orchestra. We'll be performing the the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra Hall (MPO). So, if you're free, do get yourself a ticket and come see us! ahah... We're nearly halfway through the semester already, in just a few more weeks, we'd be having our mid semester break (September). Got so many things planned for the whole semester and even the coming holidays! ahah...

I have a short term goal for the day:
To finish up the book "Choosing God's Best" and start reading the new book i bought from Kuching... ahah..

Thank you Lord for this beautiful day.

Letting Go Is Not Easy...

There are many things in life that you come across and at a certain point in time, you realise that it isn't right and you have to let it go, but sometimes you find it just so hard to let go. Especially if it's a person.

Oh Lord, may You hold my hands and lead me in Your ways, that I will let go of the things and people that I have to let go, no matter how precious they might have been to me, or how they have been so much a part of my life. Lead me to the cross where we first met, that I might crucify my flesh and live for You everyday.

Dragon Tiger Gate

Yesterday, I went down to Ipoh to buy some stuff and just to take some time out to be away from the university for a little while, just because i know that when monday comes, I'll be too busy to go out and all. So i arranged with 2 other friends and we borrowed Lun lun's car. (Thanks Wai Lun for ur car! if you're reading this...)

Initially, I didn't want to watch a movie and all I wanted to to was just shop for my things and then have dinner then go back to uni. BUT, (well, where's always a "but"..) as we sat down for lunch at the food court in the complex, I saw the trailer of this movie and it reminded me that I've been waiting for this movie since last month when i saw the trailer before another movie- i forgot what movie dee.. forget it la... So after lunch, we went up to check if the movie is showing and to my delight the next show is in the next 40 minutes!

I expected the movie to be good but at the end of it, I found the movie to be very impressive... ahah... The movie is about 2 brothers who grew up in a martial arts academy which stands for justice. The only thing about them is that they have different mothers and the elder brother is called Dragon while the younger one is called Tiger (okay.. i know the name sounds lame, but its nice in chinese la...) Ny way, the elder son decided to leave home with his mother at a very young age and later on, he was brought up by a mafia. So naturally, he became the body guard of the mafia. Aiya.. lazy want to tell the story liao la... Don't want to spoil your fun also la.. GO catch the movie yourself at your nearest TGV!!

Give you short conclusion... haha.. In the end, they worked together with a new friend to defeat a triad boss who is very powerful. The whole movie is action packed, and full of really cool martial art action! I give this movie a 4.5 out of 5 stars..

I mean it.. Go watch this movie.. you won't regret it... ahah...  

Crash, Boom, Bang!

I'm quite unhappy with the ACS (Academic Central Cervices) of my university. I just don't understand the way they work! I sometimes wonder if they do their work at all or if they understand what they are doing?!

As most of you know, each course has it's core subjects that each student who is persuing the particular degree must complete. And that there is a time table that is issued by the university (in this case the ACS) so that students know where and when the lectures of each subject that they have enrolled for are being held. The most disappointing thing is that even though I registered my courses according to the university structure, there were wait... ARE many clashes in my time table. Even my core subjects lectures clash with each other!

My biggest dissapointment is that the ACS is not willing to help us sort the problem and made it worse by telling all our lecturers that they should not entertain students who ask to change lecture, tutorial and lab slots so that we are able to attend them.

What kind of office is this? I mean as the Academic CENTRAL Services department, they should know the course structure that they themselves come out with, and they arranged the time table in such a way that even core subject lectures clash with each other!!

Please pray for me. I believe that God will take care of this somehow. I should just let this go and let God take care of it. Writing this blog really got me thinking, God is assuring me even at this moment that He will take care of this. When I look to God, this problem seem to just be a small one. Thank you God!

Lost and Found

I'm so glad because I found my missing thumb drive. Last thursday when I reached my dorm and started to unpack, i realised that my my thumb drive was missing and the thought of gettinganother one just bothers my piggy bank. So i quickly called my mum to look for it in my room. She called me back like 10 minutes later and told me that she couldnt find any thumb drive in my room.

At that poing of time, I began to hunt for new thumb drives and saw that prices have dropped so I was relieved at that. Then yesterday, again, I tried looking into my laptop bag and this time, I found it in my bag! Really praise God for that!! Going to class now...

First day of the semester

Today is the first day of the semester and I only had one lecture to attend at 2 pm. So I'm quite free today. As expected, the lecturer did not turn up for the first lecture session so we dismissed oueselves from the lecture hall after waiting in the lecture hall for more than 2o minutes. Since it's still very early when I came out of the lecture room, i went with my friends to the library to do our course confirmation and I dropped one subject because there were too many clashes in my time table and also because I feel that I could not cope with 20 credit hours. SO i dropped one subject and now i have 18 credit hours on hand. It will be a little busy but with God's mighty hands I believe that He will carry me through.

I should go and finalize my time table now. ahah.. else I wouldn't know what lectures I have tomorrow! =)

New Semester!

Well, since i started this new blog, might as well use it lar... ahah...

Tomorrow will be monday and I'd be starting my 2 year degree. Hmm... time flies, and I have been in UTP for 3 years now! that means i have about 2 more years to go before i graduate!! Woohoo!

I came back to campus last thursday with a few of my friends. It was a long day as we flew from Kuching Airport at around 7 am and we had to wait in KLIA till 12:15 for our flight to Ipoh. By the time we reach our dorms, it was nearly 3 pm. As usual, we have to clean our room when we come back from the semester break. I had to do most of the work because my roomie just had a knee operation last month and he couldn't walk around much. By evening, we were mostly done with unpacking and got setteled down and we had our first game of DOTA for the semester. For those who do not know what dota is, type dota into your search engine and you will find information about it. hehe...

This semester, I'm joining the university orchestra and we started practice on Saturday. Well, at first my friend Derrick and I feld inferior because all the other mucisians were good and we were still struggling to figure out how to play the pieces that were given to us and the conductor expected us to know the songs. I enjoyed myself though, because I got to learn new songs and with more practice, and the grace of God, I believe that I can do better. The best part about this is that I'm actually making money while enjoying myself. The orchestra is paying us RM 10 per day of practice and even though it's very little money, I guess it's better than nothing!

Our orchestra will be doing 2 major performances this year. The first is on the 20th August at the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra, and the other is on the 28th of August in our own university for the convocation. This is really great for me because I've never played in an orchestra before and although this is my first time, i'll be performing with them at such auspicious occasions. Really thank God for this opportunity.

Well, I better go and get my timetable from my course mates soon... eheh.. else i won't know what time are my lectures!

New blog!

I don't really know why i want to start this blog because i'm actually using friendster blog, but then after visiting angel's blog, i realised that this blogger can do a lot more things, and i'm going to take some time to learn how to use this blog. lolz. I will start updating this blog from today onwards =). As long as the internet in my university is fast enough!