Sidetracking

I have been running away from Your discipline.
While at the same time, I ask that You teach me to be more like You.

I want the easy way to You,
But no one ever said the road that leads to eternal life is easy.

I want to be brave and stay where You want me to stay,
Sit where you want me to sit, and listen to You.

I thank you for the weekend of encouragement,
of speaking to me, reminding me of the ultimate goal.

I have faith to believe You have heard my prayers,
The desires of my heart are all known to You.

I have nothing to hide from You,
Nor can I hide anything from You.

A season of testing, is what I must pass to grow,
A season of trusting, is what I must learn now.
A season of believing, is what I have in You,
A season of discipline, is how I become stronger.

I thank you Abba Father,
I love you Abba Father.

Another

Tomorrow is October...

Autumn in the north, Spring in the South..

Time passes by unnoticed. It seemed like yesterday, when I was cheering with Danny after the wedding dinner. I actually miss them, Haven't seen them for two weeks.

The clock seems to be ticking too fast for some reason. Not enough hours in the clock, but I still have yet to appreciate every tick of the clock. The sense of urgency is not there. I know there are things I need to do, but I keep telling myself, wait wait wait. Not yet. I don't understand why. Are there 2 of me?

I need motivation in my work, I need something new, some breakthrough! Don't have the motivation to go to the office anymore. Wish that I could do more things that just sit at my desk, and write codes while I wait for 5 pm. =(

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This coming weekend, I'm looking forward to it.

I have a dream. I even had goals for that dream, but I have lost faith in that dream. It seems like just a dream that will never be in the end.

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Well, I'm looking forward to the movie that is going to be screened next week; Resident Evil: Extinction. I've been to GSC trice this week to ask about booking the movie tickets for this coming week. Well, I haven't booked yet, cause I can only book 2 days in advance. Which kind of sucked.

Guess I can blog more tomorrow in the office. :p

Still quite a long way to go...

Well, I just found out today that I will only be able to afford buying my own car when i start working. I've checked with Maybank, and they have this superb car loan for graduates... As long as you have a minimum income of Rm1500 every month. I'm only going to start getting that kind of money when I finish my degree lar. In the mean time, I'd just have to rely on other people for transport and stuff like that. Do I believe God for a car? Honestly, the answer is no.. Else I'd already have it by now right?

K lar, the car is just a secondary concern... gotta go.. time to leave d office.

Peon

Sometimes, I feel like a peon.. Work, work and work.. hehe.. But I still do love Agilent. =) Such a nice place to work in. Don't get pressured all the time, and with a little bit of extra effort you are sure to be able to get things done in ways that surpass what the superiors require. (all this is from my experience so far... you might have a different experience la.. haha.. :p ) My work is kinda like I have to depend on other people who don't do what i do to a certain degree. Like for instance, I have to confirm with them which computer are they going to use in the end.. or how do they want the program to look like? What are their requirements?; or this is the best part of what i do...

"ei... erm..where is the computer? Are you busy right now? you seem busy.. oh sorry.. I'll wait till you are done then *walks away trying to look busy with some other thing* " Hehe..

Life is good.. but it gets a little too boring sometimes.. now, my "Supervisor" is not around... He's in the States, so kind of like "slack" off a little.. heheh.. sometimes i 'tertidur' (doze off) at my desk. oh another thing about my desk area is that it is so SUPER COLD!!! Freezing weh... especially when it rains... but strangely enough ho, the lady sitting beside me can sometimes wear sleeveless tops.. walao eh.. no need sweater or something to keep extra warm. I will always have this jacket with me..

Strangely, I'm missing campus. When I was going for internship, I really wanted to just get away from uni, to not be stuck in my room, to go out, do something else.. have a different environment.. but now, sitting here, sometimes when I think of my friends back in campus, I really want to be able to just give a phone call and ask them out for dinner together. Jesse.. miss you lei... miss the times can kacau you and Diane *oops* =x Aih.. Kinda sad at times... Looking at the other side, I have Joel and Jia Howe to always DOTA with everyday after coming back from the office. =)

For now, what I would really love to have is a car. I don't know what is putting this in me but I just feel that my joy will be complete if I have a car now.. hehe. But that shouldn't be right le.. My joy should be complete with Jesus. =) Seems that both also I have to search.. ahah... Since God's word says to seek Him first, and ALL these things will be added unto you. If only God will send me a car tomorrow... hehehe.

Man.. something is not right.. I'm so desperate for a car.. not Father.. Father, can do anything to just turn me around arr? like... duno la.. I also dunno how to help myself ady.. Can like smack my engine or throw in more fire so that I will start burning again? haha.. Like when Elijah called on You to take the sacrifice soaked in water, You sent a fire that consumed all of it, even the waters.. So if my fireplace is wet, send that fire la.. Ignite.. ignite.. ignite...

"Come Holy Spirit, I need more and more of you.
Fill me again with the power of your Spirit.
Lord I'm crying out for more of you. "

Taken from Fall in This Place by Planetshakers - Pick it Up

I think that's all for now ler.. Should I have more coffee? Audrey... make me some of ur special coffee.. hehe.. Have yet to try it.. =)

Ramblings

I want a car.

I've got 2GB of RAM now.... wee.. can i blog faster? yOU bet! =D

I travel to KL a lot.. Should I ask Agilent to post me here in KL instead? How i wish they have a office here or something like that.. then I can work in KL, and stay with my sis.. haha...

And I love the look of my blog! Weeee.. k la.. go sleep liao.. .love wireless internet and my laptop. Muaks.. Thank you God for providing me all these wonderful things. Loving you. Nights. Bye. Missing You. Do hold me in Your arms tonight. =)