Dare to fail!

I suddenly remember this book. Dare to Fail, though I've never read it, I remember the title. Do I dare to fail? Well, this will be my test. I'm sitting for my toughest paper of the semester in less than 2 hours and here I am blogging away, putting out my frustration in here. I have been studying for this paper for the past 2 days, but still, I don't understand! This is the worst of all. I might fail this semester, though I wish that I will not. I really need a miracle to pull me through this. I used to have a target of getting into the dean's list, this semester I dare not put such high hopes of fear that I might be crushed under my own expectation and my family.

Mum, dad, (well, if you find out about this blog that I have and have been reading it, here's something I want to say to you) I'm sorry that I'm not smart enough. This semester is really bad. Sometimes, as I sit on my desk, I feel that I have let you down so much, and I'm sorry. I wish that the situation would be different, but this is not a movie or a game, I can't go back in time.

All I want now is to go home, and leave all this behind. This is my last paper. I want to go home, and get fixed. "God, please fix me, I don't know what's wrong!"

The Story

This is how it goes. This week, I'm having my exams. One thing I don't understand is why I'm not worried at all. This is the first time I feel nothing during my exam week, so much so that I am not studying enough! This feels so weird. I don't know what has gotten into me. I guess it's too much of carefree living - Hakuna Matata (The Lion King)

I even managed to start a new series Heroes last week during my study week. If you guys can get your hands on that series, get it! It's really nice. I'm hoping that they will come up with the full series on DVD soon..

Ny way, hope that someone out there is praying for me. I'm lost. Both in my exams and also my life. I really hope that this holidays will be time for me to straighten things out.


My Prayer: God, be with me. Carry me through this time to suffering and teach me to be teachable. I submit to You oh God. I recognize that You are the author of my life, You have placed a great calling over my life, You have called me to greatness in You, and God, I surrender my life to You. For without You, I am nothing. I have no strength, I have no form, I make no impact.