I miss Kuching not just because of home, the food, or the weather not even the lovely atmosphere in Kuching. But it is the fellowship, the friends that I have back home.
You guys are always real, so godly, and genuine. Missing all of you already.
*wanted to put a picture, but I remembered.. I've lost ALL my pictures.. all I have are the Bako trip.. :(
I had a chance to be away from everything for a short few days during my trip back home. 7 of us, took a weekend off at the Bako National Park, and we sure did have a blast of a time. Weird, we never took a group photo together outside the boat, but anyways, I just want to share some photos and some of the wonderful time and things I had the chance to experience during the few days there.
All of us, from front left, Shellyn, Emily, Amanda (still shy), Leslie, Angelia, myself and I don't know where in the world Tasha is... Tasha?? Still in da boat a not???
Ah... Itu dia.. Tasha!! ( and Amanda.. now can see face)
Us experiencing Zero G.
The crew has landed...
On the way to "base camp"
We were greeted first by these friendly monkeys...
Barely an hour after checking in, we hiked to another beach, 2 hours away...
2 hour hike... very far lei...
At the "peak" a viewing hut...
Oh ya.. on the way, we met a few Japanese... Turned out to be professional photographers! Can't show face la.. later I kena sue...
Now, the down part.. we're reaching soon!!!
Yep... soon.. soon.. Just a little while..
Shell: So hungry aaaa.. I eat grass first!
Amanda: ...
Yea!!! we can see the beach liao! Woohoo!! But it's like 30 meters down there!! Since the view is so great.. take pictures first...
Heading down to the beach...
AT LAST!!!
On the way back to the "base camp"
Later that evening... The sunset scenery was amazing!
All thanks to Shell for planning out the trip, getting all of us to go and making it happen! I want to say thanks to everyone else who went that made this trip as fun as it is, made it so special and something I would treasure in my heart. Thank you all! I'll be missing you guys. Till we meet again, continue to love God, serve Him, and be a humble servant wherever you are!
I've been "working" at Bethany, volunteering at the Home. It has been so rewarding, I feel so fulfilled, overjoyed! It's so great not just because I get to meet so many people, but serving God just ultimately fulfilling.
Today is ultimately different. I started off the day drowsy, having very little sleep, I got up to shower and left the house by 8.10. At 9 am, the three of us, Shellyn, Emily and myself met up with Pastor for breakfast at the famous Chong Chun. I had LAKSA and TEH C PENG!
Ultimately, I find myself walking closer to Father. Even though the days are tiring, and sweaty (the office kinda hot laa :p) it is so much fun. I'm on a journey to find myself in Father again. =D Really wish I can just stop studying and just serve here.
Lord, show me Your desires, my life is Yours and the cry of my heart is to bring You praise.
I was driving home just now and the radio was playing the song form The Click Five. I'm not sure of the title but it goes something like "we're trying too hard, but it's empty". I just find this song so true, there are like so many couples out there trying so hard at their relationships, doing things that amount to nothing. So yea... people.. don't waste time on doing things that don't matter in relationships, but do things that matter, like relating to one another, connecting with one another... :)
Cheers~
This picture was taken in the dark, with no flash, just very dim lights coming from the stage during COP farewell night. The object of the photograph are Stella and Edrea, both holding one camera to film the onstage performance. I thought that it is very interesting to see two people holding up one camera thus, I just held up my camera, set the shutter speed to the slowest but most acceptable speed, held my breath (to keep myself still la!) and snapped! The initial picture was pitch black, but with a layer of filled lights, it turned out to be a work of art. Looks like a painting, but it's not, it has been edited with my amateur Photoshop skills.
Pretty cool eh!?
Who am I?
That the Lord if all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light my way,
For my ever wandering heart.
Not because of who I am,
But because of what You've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who You are.
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still You hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am,
I am yours.
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on my with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.
Who am I ?- Casting Crowns
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This song has very beautiful lyrics. I love the part where it goes to say that we are fragile and we can fade anytime. Like a flower that is here today, gone tomorrow; a wave in the ocean, a vapor in the air. Indeed we are fragile and so small. In the bible it says that all the waters in the world can be held in the hollow of God's palm. Who am I that God should be mindful of me?
I feel very humbled, our great God who is so huge and mighty, beyond my comprehension calls me His son! His grace, I cannot fully comprehend, the way he forgives me, I am forever grateful. It is very true, every single word of this song. Who am I, when I call upon His name, He would answer me, that when I fall, His hands will never be too slow to catch me.
It's girls night out and I sort of invited myself to it. Anyway, it was great fun, and actually, girls night out ain't as bad as I used to think. Well, at least this bunch didn't make us feel awkward. We enjoyed it pretty much.
The girls in "my" car.. (Thanks ST)
[From back: Nina - Tirza - Serena - Stella]
Ready.. 1... 2... 3!
Stella's head is missing!
At "Tong Shui Kai" (Dessert Street)
Irin and Vinny (not real names for security purposes)
Stella showing off her "self-taken pics" skill
First wave: Mixed fruits and Ice-Cream
Elvina: Uh uh uh.. Food!! So hungry aa!!! *Dig in!!*
Elvina:"MMMmmmmm... So nice ah!" uh uh uh (gorilla like) delicious!! *uh.. uh..uh*
Elvina (again): Wah.. not enuf space liao...
So much food!!
Stef: where are my utensils?? I want to start eating!!
*All silent for a moment*
Vinny: I know I very pretty.. but deh.. I want to eat la deh.. Come on la deh..
Nina: Poor rat.. U betta run.. They're gonna cut ur tail off for food...
Full ah.. full.. "so many 'layers' dy!"
Stef: I want to go back...
Serena: Don't worry.. We'll send you back in time for your test.. After bowling.. movies and dim sum breakfast la.. ^^
Well, we're glad that we didn't spoil the girl's outing.. Hehe... Looking forward to the movies this coming week. Before that... revision.. : (
I've been loitering around in my room today. Thoughts running through my head, the music seem to keep me sane. The thought of what is coming ahead - 3 weeks of exams. I fear I will lose my sanity.
This semester is a totally gloomy semester. I really want to get out of here quick. Even the thought of being in UTP for another semester makes me feel like it will never end.
I want to go home!!!
1 more month... hang on.. hang on... it's not over yet...
The seasons change,
Time passes never to turn back.
Have I changed?
Looking for the strength to move ahead.
I find myself alone.
I never expected this to come.
Looked for something
Unsure of what is to come.
Assured myself that it will be better
I had doubts that made Thomas a believer.
I held on to nothingness.
For all that I held on to have become distant.
The seasons change,
Thus far I have walked.
Why does my heart falter?
Brighter days are ahead.
I assured myself...
Once the winter has gone by,
Spring shall come again.
When will spring come, I wonder.
Another MUST watch movie! In the midst of my running around, rushing, burning midnight lamps, I watched this movie. Part by part, I slowly watched it, but during the interesting parts, I couldn't help myself but watch much more.
This movie is also a very touching movie, I had to force the emotions away to prevent tears from rolling out.
This movie is one that all music loves will not want to miss out. The soundtracks were awesome, and very very very creative. Very much like a fairy tale. Regardless, it is not one of those movies you watch and forget, but one you will remember in your heart for a long long time.
someone to listen to me complain
someone to pour my heart to
someone to hold the line on the other side and not say anything
someone to spend a few silent moments with
It is a feeling I cannot describe.
I don't know what I am looking for.
I just feel empty.
I can't sleep.
I just feel empty.
The finals blues?
Taking it for granted,
Being too comfortable,
In a place where I feel I do not need you,
I strayed.
You called me many times,
I told myself that I must not leave you.
Yet my feet walked a different direction.
I desired to do what I wasn't doing.
I did what my selfishness wanted.
I thought I was safe
For I always played at the border.
I played with sparks, which started a small fire.
I enjoyed the warmth that it gave.
I knew what was coming,
Still, I chose to lay beside the fire.
When I awoke, the fire had surrounded me.
I knew it was coming.
I didn't call out to you, for I know I should be responsible.
I have forgotten your goodness while I struggled
With my own strength, I tried
I tried and tried, I pushed, I crawled,
I knew I needed your help.
Little did I know,
Your hands were always near me,
Ready to lift me from the flames.
For when I called your name, You saved me.
Then I remembered your words
"I will never leave you,
Nor will I ever forsake you"
I now know, this journey is not a short one.
Though I want it to be, I have to persevere.
The struggles are not short lived.
Though you have saved me from the flames,
I must keep myself from the matches that started them.
I am weak, but in you, I am strong.
When you left, the atmosphere felt like
I was a kite, searching for a dream,
The sky after the rain, will it have the radiance of a sunshine?
I silently stared at the sky, searching for the emotions of being lost.
But I can only smile, hoping for the rainbow after the rain.
TIAN KONG - by Jolin
This year is the last year of my degree. I certainly hope that it will end this year. I don't think I can take it anymore. I feel like I have lost all desire to excel, I don't see the point in doing well anymore. Sometimes, I just don't care. All I want is go home, and not be responsible over anything. But I know I can't do that. Taking responsibility for your own life is not easy.
I used to think it's so super cool to grow up and take charge of your own life. Yes, it is in a sense, you get to decide for yourself, you get to choose what you want to do (to some extent) and you are responsible for every action that you take.
I need Your grace to get up again. I have lost faith even in myself. The finals for this semester is coming. I really need to do well. I can't just give up when I'm so near to finishing it. Help me persevere. Grant me strength.
"Let not my will be done, but Yours."
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It's not easy waiting and being unsure of what you are waiting for. Sometimes you feel afraid that what you are waiting for might not actually be there at all.
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I have been running towards you, I have been trying to be brave and tell you up front, but I fear that I might cause you to run even further. Have I waited too long? Am I too late?
For more than four years, I've hoped, I've put fourth all that I have, I've thrown in all my pieces. I want to reach out to you, but I'm afraid I will cause you to run even further. Have I waited too long? Am I too late?
When I first knew you, your words comforted me, your words made me feel warmth. Now I feel you so distant, I wished I had done a little more, I wished that I had given myself a chance when I had the chance. But I was afraid, that I will cause you to run even further. Have I waited too long? Am I too late?
Have I waited too long? Am I too late? I just want to know Sher, Have I waited too long? Am I too late?
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Last Friday was movie night. The movie title - Facing the giants.
Only one comment, watch it, please do. I'm the kind of guy who don't cry when I watch touching movies, but this movie, gripped my heart, the messages so strong, I had to struggle so hard to hold my tears back. (It's a Christian movie by the way.. and it's not any ordinary Christian movie, it's a movie that described how great is our God.)
Movie 2- The Mist
The first time, I felt so emotional, I felt so into the movie.
In the end, all I could do was scream. Literally scream...
Oh yeah.. do watch it too.
Good night.
