Unwell

  Last Thursday, after dinner, as I sat in front of my laptop, doing I don't know what, I suddenly felt like I was going to be sick. The flu came fairly quickly, I took my ever potent "Clarinaise" hoping that the flu will be gone in the morning. A little while after that, I felt chills all over my body and I quickly went to bed, hoping that the extra rest that I get will help me be better in the morning. * * *

* * * Waking up to a nose blocked with mucous, and throat so dry, I thought it has cracked or thorn somewhere, I knew, the episode wasn't over. I was too tired and lazy to getup to get ready for work, so I just slept in, thinking to myself that I'd go after lunch. I woke up around 10 am, and I reached for my phone, looked up my supervisor's number and gave him a call. The next thing I knew, I felt hungry, so fixed myself a cup of Milo and took another Panadol.

Well, all I did was sleep, sleep, sleep and play a little bit of DOTA here and there.. hehe..

He's not smiling a lot that weekend. Mebi coz he's a little sick.

Yesterday I was talking to Eilyn, and apparently, she was sick too! Well, I can't agree more with her that it could be uncle Kevin's boy... haha.. Giving us his virus!! But anyway, I'm better now, thanks be to my Father in heaven who is gracious and loving and always grants me good health!

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Sidetracking

I have been running away from Your discipline.
While at the same time, I ask that You teach me to be more like You.

I want the easy way to You,
But no one ever said the road that leads to eternal life is easy.

I want to be brave and stay where You want me to stay,
Sit where you want me to sit, and listen to You.

I thank you for the weekend of encouragement,
of speaking to me, reminding me of the ultimate goal.

I have faith to believe You have heard my prayers,
The desires of my heart are all known to You.

I have nothing to hide from You,
Nor can I hide anything from You.

A season of testing, is what I must pass to grow,
A season of trusting, is what I must learn now.
A season of believing, is what I have in You,
A season of discipline, is how I become stronger.

I thank you Abba Father,
I love you Abba Father.

Long Weekend

AH... alas! It's Friday, and this weekend is going to be a long one. =)

Well, this week has been a good, busy and fulfilling week I should count. There has been much progress at work with the program that I am working on. On Monday, as I was trying out again like how I always did, this time, it worked!

Had pretty good food also this week, too bad I'm not on holidays, so I didn't take my camera with me ler. Today, I went for Kenny Rogers and tried the new roasted chicken with "spicy" sauce. It turned out to be very good, met my expectations. The best part is that, after we stepped out of the place, my friend told me that they just charged us for 1 plate of the dish! SO all in all, we paid RM30 only! Haha..

Looking forward to Sunday! After church, 5 of us; Darren, Eilyn, Fellicia, Su Ee and myself, we'll be heading to SP to meet uncle Kevin! Really looking forward to see all of them. Hope that the traveling will not be too tiring though.

K.L.A.N.G

Took the 6 pm bus from Penang straight after work. Like usual, I got stuck on the Penang bridge for about 40 minutes, (30 minutes before that turn around Penang, trying to get to another route to reach the bridge... =.=") Anyways.. I reached KL around 11.10 and I took the taxi to Vista Komanwell. Itching to play PS2, I got so engrossed in the game that I slept at 5 am, and then roughly 5 hours later, my sister called. " Wei! Want to go breakfast or not. We're going out for breakfast liao." My heart says go, but my body tell me "sleep..." Anyways, I got up and went with them cause so long never see them ady, so catch up with them a little ler.

By lunch time, I went to meet Cheryl at Central, (1 hr late. :p) and then got my own, first 'Touch N Go' card! Wheee~~~ so happy now that I don't have to queue to buy tickets for trains anymore. Just 'Touch, and Go'!

At the station, met 4 of Cheryl's juniors and apparently, one of them, Shirley *hope I got the spelling correct* is Elvina, Felix and Thana's cell group member! KL is not that 'BIG' after all. :p

So, we reached Klang at around 3.40 I think, and we went straight to HCA for the concert. Juwita was great, and her team was really great too. The music was great, so was the presence of God in the place. Missed the time of worship where we really gave our all in our praise to God and just danced, and jumped for Him! Throughout the concert, Juwita shared quite a bit about herself, like.... I learnt that she actually grew up in Klang between the age of 15 - 20.

The weekend was really great, and being able to see the HCA youths again, it was really great. All of us have grown so much~ It was really great to be able to go back there and meet up with everyone in Klang. Wish I can go again soon.

Thanks to Uncle Michael and Aunty Madeline for being so hospitable, and allowing me to stay at their home.

God is good all the time. And all the time, God is good!

Cheers~

You

You have captured my heart, I have kept you in mine for a long time.

Dreaming of you yesterday, seems to be the sweetest thing to happen to me this week.

Weird as it is, I feel joyful even though the events in the dream weren't all so wonderful.

I wish to keep this feeling with me for the rest of the day, but it is quickly fading.
Am I a fool to keep believing? To keep hoping?

Even if it takes my whole lifetime, I would wait for you.

Monsoon

The air in Penang is different today. The air is damp, the clouds hover over the skies, blocking away the sun. I guess this is how Europe is like. Always gray. The air is cool, and extra cold in the office today.

I did something really stupid today. I was working on my project, and I added a new chunk of code that retrieves data from a database, and somehow, I messed up everything. The whole project interface can't be edited anymore in design mode anymore.  (Forgive me for all the technical stuff.. if you don't understand, just think of it as a white board that you can draw things, but now, the white board had been blocked, and you can't change anything anymore) The solution was to start all over again, but well, good thing this happened much earlier before I added a whole lot more functionality to the application.

Well, who to blame? The compiler for not warning me about the warning before compiling and saving, or me who made the mistake? Well, I would choose not to blame myself. :p

Anyway, I have made a copy of the project and I am reminding myself to do it everyday. =) Just incase I do make another mistake like that, I can just revert to the last editing that I made. The most time I would lose will be 1 day instead of losing weeks or months of work!

The rain has been pouring the whole day today. It's such a nice weather to sleep in. I hope tomorrow will be the same. Cool and cloudy, and gray cause that's how I feel at the moment. Well better still, a chilly day in Malaysia~! But I guess when that day comes, the world weather is so seriously messed up~

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Sometimes I feel that there's no meaning to all that I'm doing. Feel like the things that I do have no substance. No form, no "solid" matter. Anyone felt that way before, or is it just me thinking too much or too little? Pretty messed in the head I think. =S
I need some professional help I think.. xD

OK.. enough crapping.. Should start seeking direction from Father.

Father, grant me Your grace, grant me some strength, breathe into me again.

Another

Tomorrow is October...

Autumn in the north, Spring in the South..

Time passes by unnoticed. It seemed like yesterday, when I was cheering with Danny after the wedding dinner. I actually miss them, Haven't seen them for two weeks.

The clock seems to be ticking too fast for some reason. Not enough hours in the clock, but I still have yet to appreciate every tick of the clock. The sense of urgency is not there. I know there are things I need to do, but I keep telling myself, wait wait wait. Not yet. I don't understand why. Are there 2 of me?

I need motivation in my work, I need something new, some breakthrough! Don't have the motivation to go to the office anymore. Wish that I could do more things that just sit at my desk, and write codes while I wait for 5 pm. =(

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This coming weekend, I'm looking forward to it.

I have a dream. I even had goals for that dream, but I have lost faith in that dream. It seems like just a dream that will never be in the end.

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Well, I'm looking forward to the movie that is going to be screened next week; Resident Evil: Extinction. I've been to GSC trice this week to ask about booking the movie tickets for this coming week. Well, I haven't booked yet, cause I can only book 2 days in advance. Which kind of sucked.

Guess I can blog more tomorrow in the office. :p

Going Solo

This is one of the rare weekends that I stay in Penang. Just like last week. Hehe.. I guess next week, this time, I'd be in HCA Klang~ Whee~~ Don't know what I should expect there, and I sometimes wonder if it's going to be a "kekok" moment in my life or not.. Haven't been there for so so so long already..

Anyways, today I didn't just sit at home and do nothing. Instead, I went shopping in the evening. =D

This is one of the few times that I go to the shopping mall alone actually. I'm not so used to walking around in a crowded place alone. Somehow I just feel a little awkward. Guess the weeks of having to eat lunch alone in the office has gotten me used to be without a company.

It sure is different, walking around alone, and "shopping" alone. Haha... One thing is for sure, it still can be great going out alone. The only thing is that when you stop for a drink, you have no one to talk to.. But, I'm glad I could sms my sister and talk to her a little bit during the time when I took my break.

Yeah.. it's not wasted today~! I spent it well I would think. Tomorrow, I still don't know what to do yet.  Hehe.

Anyways, I've stocked up food, so incase my housemates have this crazy idea of not having dinner in the future, I'd be prepared~ =D

*Sniff sniff

Been sick the last few days... Wasted my Sunday sleeping, hoping that the cold will be gone, and the wishing the pain in my body to be turned into strength. This is one of the times I felt so sick, I didn't have appetite to eat anything much at all. Strangely enough, I was craving for porridge and "Kue Tiaw" in soup. Anyways,with a lot of prayers, much sleep, a dose of Claymore and a little pinch of dota (when will these 4 letters disappear from my life eh?) I am well again! Still a little sore in the throat, but will be better in a few days I hope.

Looking forward,
With many uncertainties.
I can't but only hope,
I can't but only wish it's not all in vain.

Eventful day!

This weekend is a really good one.. Especially today. I must say it's a very "successful" and eventful day.

This morning, woke up kinda late, and went out with my house mates and Teng who came to visit us. We went to Bukit Mertajam for lunch.. and we had a very deliciously cheap lunch~ Total of 4 dishes, and a desert and drinks, we paid RM38 for 5 people! Cheap rite? Hehe..

Teng ordering food..
Us munching away..

~Delicious~

Then we went to a nearby shop to have some Rojak. After the rojak, I really felt that it was a little hard to move around.. hehe.. Anyways, we walked around Bukit Mertajam (BM) area, and Teng showed us around because BM is where he grew up.

After walkind around the town, we went to St. Anne's Church. Well, it's my first time in a Catholic church and I must say, it's very very very different. At the back of the church there was this hill that went up and up with "stations" of crosses along the way and at the "top" of the hill, a huge statue of the cross and a place to light candles. I did climb all the way up just to take a look and here are the pictures.

The "smaller" Hall
Up up we go... Can reach heaven ker? Hehe..
At the "top"

Looking down from "up" there.
The people I went with... and another praying spot

Forgive my squinty eyes..The sun was really bright... :p

The place was really impressive. The buildings are ancient but they are so well maintained!

After walking around the huge compound of the church, we were so tired and we got into the hot hot hot hot, i tell you HOT car and rode back to Penang for some "Ais Kacang" and reached back around 4 pm. =.= Kaput ady...

When reached back, I told myself I wanted to sleep, but after lying down 10 minutes, I decided to clean my room, make it neat and tidy.. and I do intend to keep it that way from now on. =D

The cleaning process.. Looks like I'm moving out rite?

Well, I spent the night washing clothes, and putting my room back in order, making everything much much much neater! Hehe... Gotta go sleep now.. Have to do my shopping list for tomorrow and then sleep. Really thank God for the strength He gave me to do all these things today!

Questions

Can I go home yet? I don't feel like working today.. Like yesterday also.. and also on Tuesday.. Can I go back early?

When is October 6th coming? or rather October 5th. When?? (The day after October 4th la.. =.=)

When can I have my own car? Waited like 3 years d lei... 3 years only? aiyoh.. can wait a little longer la...

Should I buy myself a new phone? A little waste of money rite?

Will things happen the way I want it to? Weh.. should be Let things happen the way God wanted them to.. =)

Ok.. time to go lunch.. Whee~

Rest if you must, but don't you quit

The weeks and months had been unforgiving
Straining every muscle,
I strive to stay above the water line

Going below every now and then
My breath becomes shallower and shorter
The pain is sometimes intense, while at times,
I'm just too tired to tell the difference.

Indeed You have been faithful.
Tho I turned away, Your hands were there for me
When I cried out, You were never too far away

A little step is not enough I say
I must push more!
I must do more; prove myself worthy
But You said rest!

Running around aimlessly,
I declined when You offer help.
How foolish am I?
Has my little heart not known?
If You are for me, who can be against me?

I am weak,
I need Your grace
Let me curl up in Your arms,
Teach me to rest in You

Of Silver Bells and Loud Cheers!

Saturday was a blast! Not to mention the flight back on Thursday, and the excitement of Friday. It was my sister's wedding last weekend, and though there were a few hiccups here and there, the whole thing was great! I hope my sister enjoyed it as much as I did ler.. Before the wedding week, got so many things to finalize and all. Anyways, on Wednesday I asked to be excused a little earlier from the office to pack up for my bus ride to KL. I reached KL that night at 11 pm, then the next day flew back home with Danny and che.

Nothing much happened on Thursday except for me getting a few errands done, and then on Friday, went to get my glasses fixed, had Kolo mee at Jalan Ang Cheng Ho and went to pick up the car after having "2" lunch that day. Hehe.. (Ate at 11.30 then at 2 pm ate again.. )

The first few moments in the car was a little "wow" kind of experience. I don't know how to describe it... and I didn't even know how to turn on the lights, or take the keys out from the ignition! It was an experience for me, to drive an European car. After a few minutes, I got used to the car, and began to enjoy the driving experience of a Benz. The thing that I'm most impressed with is that the car has so many cool gadgets and controls. The seats are all motorized, adjustable with a push / tap of a button. Even the CD console was really cool. The CD changer is hidden behind the controls, that is revealed when you push a button; the console is lifted like some secret hidden computer which just makes it look really cool ler. I used to think that a Benz is an old man's car, but after the Compressor, I realize that it's actually kinda cool. Loads of function that I didn't even have time to learn how to use yet!

Ok, I got a little carried away with the car, but well, being the driver, it's important that you like the car you're driving right? =D Love the car, and the car will love you back. :p

Saturday morning, I got up really early, and showered, got into my Monkey Suit, and waited for my sister to get ready lor.. The waiting part was really boring ler.. Didn't have appetite to eat breakfast, but knew that I'd be super hungry if I didn't so ate a bit lor... Then by 7.40 left the house with Danny to pick up the best man Eddie to the church. Reached the church by 8.10 and then headed back home to wait for the time to send my sister to the church. By 8.45, left home with Che and Val in the car, then waited outside the church for nearly 20 minutes because they said some guests were not there yet! Whalau eh.. Wait till sweat, wait till car nearly run out of petrol (1/4 tank actually :p) "Reali beh tahan" waited so long, then I called dad to say car no more petrol! Then we went in lor.. hehehe.. Then hor, I didn't get to see che walking in, coz by the time I got in, there already started praying for the service d lor...

After the service was over... had a little "makan makan" then went for photo shoot at the studio for our families. Other than the place being a little too hot, and the photographer insisting that we show our teeth when we smile, I guess it was okay lor..

At night was the dinner reception ler.. I must say the MC for the night was really good. Her command of English, and the way she use words was really good. Hehe.. The dinner was really fun, enjoyable and delicious! =D
Well, I didn't know what to give them as a gift, so I sang the song Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton for them. Hehe.. After listening the band playing the song on stage, I just thought that the words were too beautiful to be omitted. haha..

21

I'm 21 already!

A milestone in my life. I've learn't so much, experienced so much, but still, there is so much more! Can't help but be excited about God's plans when I think of Him.

Thank you Father, for taking me through all these years, for loving me all this while, being patient with me. Showing me your light whenever I am lost, picking me up whenever I fall, and carrying me whenever I'm too weak to do anything.

Looking forward to another wonderful year with You!


Want to thank everyone who remembered my birthday, and wished me.

Home

I want to be where you are,
In Your presence I am free, blessed and loved.

I want to spend my days in Your arms,
In your embrace, I am free, blessed and loved.

I want to run after You,
Guided by You, I am free, blessed and loved.

Everlasting

The smile on her face,

The sound of her voice,

The way she looks,

The way she walks.


How I long to see her smile again,

To hear her call my name,

To see her eyes gaze into mine,

Watching her take her steps, just makes my heart buzz with excitement.

September

It's September ady... and life seems a little blurry now.. Without my specs la! Can't believe it. I feel better not using my specs but the world becomes blurry. Ny ways, Khai Yi have me a great suggestion.. Use contacts for the time being! hahaha.. I shall go buy it when I reach KL ler. =D

Been quite busy this week, and right now, I'm learning how to program ASP websites! Ain't that cool? hehehe... Dynamic websites... woooo.. Ok.. maybe it's not so WOW for u guys.. but it's cool. Just like the Amazon websites, where nothing is static (maybe a few elements) and the contents change as per demanded!

Yesterday ho, something really funny happened. I came to the office super late, cause Zhia Howe and I decided to sleep in a little bit, but we overslept and woke up really late! When I reached the office, I suddenly remembered that it was the day for the weekly department meeting! And when I reached, they were just wrapping up, and I had to walk to the meeting table ( I think it's more polite to go ler.. rather than just sit at my desk where they can see me anyway). When I reached the table, they asked me what happened? And my mind was still a little fuzzy cause I just got up from bed like 20 minutes ago (I think) I just blurted "Oh, we overslept" After I said that, I was like *oh man.. (hit wall, hit tiang.. hit car.. @_@) * They all laughed.. Aih.. Sangat memalukan rite?

Better start reading some more and look busy! hehe..

Delayed

Here I am, at the Old KTM station, waiting for my bus that's supposed to leave at 6 pm just now.
Well, I do have a lot more to write, but I just want to make a note that I was stuck here in this station. I sure hope that the bus will leave by 7.30 like they said.

Had a great and wonderful weekend I should say.. Will write more when I get back.

Anyhow, I just want to say Thank you Father for this weekend!

Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

Jubilee year celebration for Malaysia.

I must say I'm proud to be a Malaysian. I'm sure there are some of you out there who think otherwise, and that Malaysia is not good enough, but I feel, Malaysia is indeed a blessed land.

What more can I say? This is where I'm born, I believe that this land is a land of destiny if we are to answer our calls. Amen?

Well, what I did for tonight was:

1. Ate Mc D for dinner
2. DOTA at home
3. Blog (doing now)
4. Pack up ( for tmr la)

Hehe...

Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

Today ho, Spoke to the girl sitting beside me after what felt like a long time we had this silence between us. Don't know why, but the past few days, ... maybe weeks, we didn't talk. Then today, I just plucked up my courage and offered her some "Wrigley's Eclipse mints" hehe.. So got talk a bit lor.. Feel so weird like sit beside each other but never talk. Lolxx.. The boys school syndrome.. hahaha...

Well, don't know what to do now, maybe I should do more dotaing.. hehe.. Or sleep.. lalala...

Ok ler... better start packing, and sleeping soon.. Leaving early tmr...


Happy Birthday Malaysia!

Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

System Error...

How much more "soi" can I be le.. My office computer got virus, then I thought that I could remove it, and things will be fine again.. So I installed a spyware remover cause the virus detected was a spyware, and after I did the removing, it prompted for a restart. So ma restart lo, after restart, Windows loaded properly, but when I login, it straight away logout. Can't even go into Windows.

Well, I learn something new today also; which is how to use the Linux operating system. And I kind of like it. It's not as user friendly as windows is but you definitely can do more things with your PC when you are running a Linux. Well, this might be a start of something new for me. Would like to find out more, and maybe test it out on my own.

I shall go find something to entertain me now while I'm still at home, else tomorrow will be reali bored. Oh ya.. my lecturer is coming over to my company for a visit. Cool eh! I hope everything will turn out well. =D